Friday, November 6, 2009

End of an Ending

Relieved yet shattered
Closure yet remembrance
Time to move on


Acceptance yet anger
Comprehension yet pain
Only logical step


Seasons change yet minutes freeze
Memory pulls yet blinks away

All things come to an end

Sunday, November 1, 2009

One Little Sentence

It's amazing how you can have a pretty good night, then someone says something and it goes to shit. I know I shouldn't really care, but strangely I do. At least right now I do.

"I'm so jealous of you." Most people would take this as a compliment but when it's said in a tone that implies "Why can't you just fucking go to hell and die." It loses something there. Again, why do I care?? Probably becuz I'm tired of being the target of other peoples bullshit. Do I have a "Shit on me" sign taped to me?? Or do people just assume my life must rock cuz whatever it is that they're jealous of I have?? Heads up assholes, get your shit off me and put it where it belongs.

Here are my top 3 topics of people bitching at me or about me.

3. I'm jealous of you...cuz the guy you like is friends with me. Hello, sweetheart....I'm sorry my friend isn't into you but ya know what I'm in the same fuckin' boat your are. The guy I like isn't all that into me. In fact I'm hearing he's into someone else. So quit bawling your eyes out at the bar and learn to accept. If I can suck it up in public so can you.

2. You've split up with a guy and he likes me....so now I'm the evil slut from hell. OK, honey....I don't know you, and you don't know me. So instead of spreading acid about me why don't you realise that once your relationship ended and you have moved on to someone else, your ex is fair game. And btw, I'm not interested in him anyway.

1. Why does she get first pick of new gigs. This ones kind of a no brainer, but it still pisses me off. I have worked for the company longer than you. You make more money every fucking Saturday night than I do. You get a flat rate, I get commission. I'll trade you if you'd like. I am better at my job than you are. People don't complain I play too many or the same song between rounds. I got the gig to help make up the difference in money I do not make the night before....assuming I start at all.

My life isn't any better or any worse than other peoples. I guess I just make a better sucker.