How do I tell him how much it hurts
When he doesn't want to see me
How do I tell him how it rips my insides
When he says he couldn't be bothered
How do I tell him I feel not worth the effort
When he says he doesn't have the energy
How do I tell him how crappy it feels
To be dropped, to talk to someone else
Would he notice
If I stopped trying
Would he care
That my heart is breaking...right now
Does he not see
That I've been played the fool already
Does he not realise
That my truth has scared him once
He asks for the truth
I am unable to give it to him
He is too fuckin' tired
And I am too afraid
So I wait
For him to want to see me
Not convenience, same place - same time
Makes the effort
Then,
Then I will tell him my truth
I will take that chance
And hope he will not run
If he does,
Then perhaps I was wrong
It would not be the first time
Nor do I expect it to be my last
But I grow weary of this game
And others fear and insecurities
Yet I am loyal in my attraction
Regardless of if it's returned or not
I grow tired of feeling
Unwanted, alone
Wondering if things will change...ever
If I'm even good enuff
